Don't Be That Girl

boys. let's get to the truth. they are life ruiners. they come in here acting like they own the world, steal our hearts, and then what? i'm not one of those girls who hates all boys. but i do see a boy and just "love" him. i don't mean real love, i mean "love". it's more of a deep attraction that makes me say, "i am going to marry him and have his babies." i'm kidding here people, well a little bit. i see girls trying to get guys all the time. and i notice that they go about it the wrong way. girl get your shit together. boys don't want a girl to be skanky and easy. well some do, but lets face it we don't want or need those boys. so here are some tips on what NOT to do.

• do not text him repeatedly. this goes for everyone. i don't care if you are starting to crush or been dating for 5 years. clingy is never cool. you hear me? NEVER! just don't. 
• do not get jealous, and if you can't do that don't show it. while sometimes guys think it's cute that their girl is jealous, most find it annoying. be confident and don't let the boy think otherwise. keep your friends close and your enemies closer. 
• do not cute text him. you know what i mean by this. let's give an example. "HEYYYYY! :) OMGSH you are too presh! aren't you just adorbs!! :)" NO this is not acceptable! it looks like you're some crazy ass valley girl who can't handle talking like a normal person. 
• do not stalk him. whether this be in person or in private on your computer. it's okay to look him up once on fb, but don't obsess over what he's doing, who he's with, and where he's at. YOU ARE NOT HIS GIRLFRIEND. and if you are have some trust for your man. and if you can't trust him don't date him. 
• do not tell random people that you are talking. if you start telling people and he gets word of this, he will freak. 
• do not assume that he feels the same way. it can be scary to have feelings for a new guy, but you cannot think a 'hey' means 'i love you'. 

these are some simple rules that all girls should remember. sometimes it's hard for us to follow them because well we are girls. so when you finally do get that guy that is beyond perfect. keep him close and don't scare him away. 

"immature love says: 'i love you because i need you.' mature love says 'i need you because i love you.'--Erich Fromm

xoxo

-Sam

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Sisters

sisters. such a small word with a big meaning. i have doing a lot of thinking about this lately. i have one sister. she's two years younger than me. we have had the typical relationship of sisters with a few twists. we are alike in a few ways, but different in many. i must tell you that i'm writing this in bed at 11:30 at night. my room is dark and my roommate is asleep in her bed across from me. i'm probably making a lot of noise with my keyboard. So if you ever read this i'm sorry, but this needed to be said.

me and my sister got really close this past summer. we were learning how to be apart (parents divorced and we split & went one with each). it was really nice. we started doing anything and nothing together. we talked everyday and we became best friends. it was nice having someone i could always count on. we bonded over the silliest things and it worked for us. about a month ago we had a huge fight. it was sort of ridiculous and stupid but it happened. we both tend to be a bit stubborn and mean when we want to be. the reason i think we got so  mad is because we didn't like how the other was reacting. i'm emotional, and she is not. it's just how we are. so we went weeks without speaking. let me just tell you now that it was some of the most lonely weeks of my life. i didn't talk to her everyday and it was weird. but i always found things that i wanted to tell her, but i couldn't cave first (there's that stubborness). so i let us grow apart and that bonding slowly faded. now we are talking again and it just feels weird. i feel like i am talking to a friend that i haven't seen in years. i feel like i can't be myself because i don't want to cause another fight. this isn't how sisters should be, right? we should be laughing and enjoying our lives together. but we're not because of a stupid fight that shouldn't of been such a big deal. i wish we could go back to how we were... 

i miss talking everyday about our boyband obsession and how one of us (not me) has a crush on their teacher. i miss going to get starbucks together. i miss getting a cupcake to go along with our starbucks. i miss talking about how she will go off to college in a year when i can remember her as a kindergartner. i just miss all of it. i'm sure we will get back there someday when we're older and realize all these petty fights were just that. 

i'm not sure if she will ever read this. or if i will ever tell her that i posted about her. but i do know she was the first person i told that i made a blog because i knew she would understand. i know she is a wonderful and strong, independent girl who will change the world. i know that no matter what happens that i love her more than anything and i will do anything for her. i know that this summer i will celebrate us seeing our loves in concert and act like 12 year old girls. i know we won't care about anyone who judges how we are, because we are sisters. i know that even if we fight that our tattoos will always be a reminder of our bonds. nothing can change the fact that she is my sister. and she always will be. 

Hebrews 6:19 states we have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. 

do you have a sister? are you talking? are you friends? if not make it right. one day all you will have is your sister. she will be everything to you. 

“Sister. She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child.” --Barbara Alpert

xoxo

-Sam

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The Beginning

this is my first post. i have no idea what to say. who reads these things? will someone i know read it? what do i write about? does anybody care that i'm writing?

okay. i am making this my first and official post to this blog. i'm sure someday i will come back and read this and say, "sam, you sound like an idiot. get it together.". i think that's the point though. this blog is for me to sort out my thoughts and tell people who i am, what i think, why i think it. it's mine. i have decided as you can tell you throw capitalization out the window. i tell myself that it looks different and shows i don't need capitalization to prove my point. in reality it is because i'm lazy and won't wear my finger out pressing that shift button. that's one thing you should know. i'm so extremely lazy, but i can definitely be a go getter when i want to be.

i keep debating with myself if i should make this blog personal or remain anonymous. i keep saying what if my friends find out and make fun of me. will people care? will they think this is about them? truthfully, i don't care. i'm not writing this for them. i'm writing it for me and anyone who wants to read it. i also have tried to define a purpose of this blog. should i be funny or give my deep thoughts on the world? i'm going to tell you that you can probably expect some deep thoughts about life. you can expect some pity me stories (bear with me and then slap me). expect a hell of a lot of humor, sarcasm, and awkward life moments. so let's get to know each other. we'll start with fun facts of my life. WARNING: these facts may not be fun, but they're me.

1. i am sam. (cliche i know)
2. my faith and love for God comes first and foremost in my life.
3. my family comes next. these people are insane and make me feel so, but i love them. they are always there for me and support whatever i want to do.
4. i have 3 nieces who seriously make my life worth living. they're perfect.
5. i have two older brothers and one younger sister. they're all perfectly evil.
6. i LOVE Duke basketball. that is capitalized to show you i mean business.
7. i cheered for 10 years of my life.
8. i'm a current college student.
9. i am from a small town everyone else hates, but i love. maybe that's because i left.
10. i have a yorkie named chuy. he's my one and ONLY baby. this girl ain't got no time for kids. girl please.
11. i am smart and strong and refuse to believe people who tell me otherwise.
12. i have friends that would blow your mind. they are my rocks.
13. i LOVE One Direction. say what you want but i am going to marry niall horan.
14. i am 20 and just trying to figure out where i fit in.
15. these facts are just the tip of the iceburg.

i have told you some facts about me, and i hope that this blog doesn't go unread. i don't know who is reading  or if anyone is. but to any reader i may have, you matter and i love you for reading. tell your awesome friends. now to finish this blog a favorite quote of mine (that i pulled off a quote app on my phone)

"Laugh at yourself, but don't ever aim doubt at yourself. Be bold. When you embark for strange places, don't leave any of yourself safely on shore. Have the nerve to go into unexplored territory."--Alan Alda

xoxo
-Sam

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